hoping to someday be a force of nature
First of all, I would like to wish you ( the reader ) happy holidays! I am aware that this is a tad overdue, nevertheless, I hope your holidays were full of cheer, loud children and food. After all, a holiday season wouldn't be the same without a stressful household.
I spent the past two weeks searching for my perfect shade of foundation. Specifically, I had my heart set on Rihanna's Fenty Foundation, since she basically conquered the makeup industry when she introduced 40 shades of foundation to the world. I decided to see what all the excitement was about...which is why I spent around three hours ( this is of course the combined time of all the numerous visits I took) in Sephora trying to swatch each shade on my wrist while still remaining out of sight of the talkative Sephora ladies. I like to come to Sephora with a full face of makeup on, so that even if I am stopped by a Sephora lady to be asked if I need any help, she can see that I belong. We are one. Whenever I walk into that store I hear that Lion King song turn on. You know, the one with Chiara being all apologetic to her father Simba, when we ARE ALL AWARE THAT WHAT SHE DID WAS STUPID. What if Kovu had died ? Zara would have unleashed absolute hell upon them instantaneously I mean who does she think she i--- anyway, the song ends with them all singing "We Are One". Indeed we are Sephora lady, indeed we are.
I brought up my whole foundation shade journey at the dinner table. If you read my "hippos have pink milk post", you would know that bringing things up at our table never ends well. The first response to my tale was: You don't need foundation. Y O U D O N ' T N E E D F O U N D A T I O N.
"Oh but that is such a compliment why are you aggravated? " "Oh how kind, thank you!"
NO. NO. NO. No. no. I asked not for your opinion, nor your honesty. I shall purchase the foundation nevertheless.
I wonder why some find themselves comfortable saying things like that to others. Surely, if I had said:
"Hmmm, you don't need clothes" they would still choose to wear clothes since they cover up the certain insecurities the person has. They feel more comfortable when clothed.
I feel more comfortable when happy with the way I look and present myself.